Today for some reasons, my confidence took a real beating. And the sadness just came out in waves. After a rather long time I felt like I should cry and let my emotions get the better of me. But I realised I can’t even cry properly anymore. And the hurt... it just hangs there. In limbo. And there’s nothing much one can do about it but carry on with ones life. Trying to pick up the pieces and hoping one can get back at least parts of the the lost confidence one worked so hard to get.
I often find myself wondering why people are so intent on hurting me so much. What must have I done to deserve this? There is no answer. It is what it is. There is however tremendous pain. There is an intense and indescribable heart ache and loneliness which i simply need to deal with all on my own.
Just takes one bad interaction with one person to make me feel so much. Who knew? Well... I did. Deep down I did.
I often find myself wondering why people are so intent on hurting me so much. What must have I done to deserve this? There is no answer. It is what it is. There is however tremendous pain. There is an intense and indescribable heart ache and loneliness which i simply need to deal with all on my own.
Just takes one bad interaction with one person to make me feel so much. Who knew? Well... I did. Deep down I did.
