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Saturday, July 21, 2007
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
INCOMPLETE... Dead or alive
How does one cope with the passing away of a loved one? This question has been hounding me for a long time. Why do we sometimes revel in the ache? Almost as we enjoy it. We want it. It’s because pain is good. We pity on our own self, and take vulgar pleasure from it. The twinge that I fell so deep within me, is so necessary now, that I will not be able to live if devoid of it. Why are we never satisfied? Why do we keep wanting more. Loss is inevitable, then why do we hope against hope?
Anguish is something very individual. My way of expressing it differs from others, but does that make me less compassionate? I lost many people I loved so intensely, one still exists, but distanced. I feel extremely sad about the one who exists. I fondly remember ones who don’t. The have moved on, leaving us behind, and so must I.
To someone who didn’t exist for me a while back, why do I feel such pain? Why do I feel so incomplete? He is there, behind a glass wall, I can see him, talk to him, I feel an extreme affection for him, but I am refrained from expressing it. Such is my dilemma. The dead have gone and left me with good memories, and the living are distancing themselves, causing an excruciating agony, that is growing, and not healing with time.
I am incomplete, and will remain so, till I convene with those who have left me for good. But then I will still remain incomplete since the living will keep haunting me, when I am dead.
Anguish is something very individual. My way of expressing it differs from others, but does that make me less compassionate? I lost many people I loved so intensely, one still exists, but distanced. I feel extremely sad about the one who exists. I fondly remember ones who don’t. The have moved on, leaving us behind, and so must I.
To someone who didn’t exist for me a while back, why do I feel such pain? Why do I feel so incomplete? He is there, behind a glass wall, I can see him, talk to him, I feel an extreme affection for him, but I am refrained from expressing it. Such is my dilemma. The dead have gone and left me with good memories, and the living are distancing themselves, causing an excruciating agony, that is growing, and not healing with time.
I am incomplete, and will remain so, till I convene with those who have left me for good. But then I will still remain incomplete since the living will keep haunting me, when I am dead.
Thursday, July 12, 2007
RETRO LAMBRETTA!
One look at my grandfather’s old lambretta and you would know why he doesn’t believe in locking it… at our stilt parking, or on any roadside parking, etc… He is confident no one would dare to touch it… many a times; he has left (not intentionally) a few important documents and things in the storage compartment of his scooter, unlocked… and till date, nothing has disappeared from there.
The scrap merchants have their eye on such things… but the thing that works to my grandfather’s advantage is that it’s much too heavy. The money for the scrap from this scooter is not worth all the effort to haul it all the way to the scrap yard.
Well, one fine summer afternoon, my grandfather unknowingly parked in a no parking zone, and had his lambretta lifted by the police. Now, the police have guts… Can’t really blame them… they have the manpower, and they need money. So, since he did not bother too much about the safety of his lambretta, being in the very capable hands of the police, he went to rescue his scooter, not the same day but the next day…
The police were relieved to see the owner of the old lambretta claiming it as his own and taking it away after paying the requisite fine… The reason: The last time they whisked away two such old lambrettas from no parking zones, the owners of the relevant scooters never came to claim up and collect the bikes, let alone pay fine… and those two scooters still remain where they are… with the police… not worth the effort to sell off to scrap, and not worth using…
The scrap merchants have their eye on such things… but the thing that works to my grandfather’s advantage is that it’s much too heavy. The money for the scrap from this scooter is not worth all the effort to haul it all the way to the scrap yard.
Well, one fine summer afternoon, my grandfather unknowingly parked in a no parking zone, and had his lambretta lifted by the police. Now, the police have guts… Can’t really blame them… they have the manpower, and they need money. So, since he did not bother too much about the safety of his lambretta, being in the very capable hands of the police, he went to rescue his scooter, not the same day but the next day…
The police were relieved to see the owner of the old lambretta claiming it as his own and taking it away after paying the requisite fine… The reason: The last time they whisked away two such old lambrettas from no parking zones, the owners of the relevant scooters never came to claim up and collect the bikes, let alone pay fine… and those two scooters still remain where they are… with the police… not worth the effort to sell off to scrap, and not worth using…
I HAVE STAR TRAILS!
It was due for a long time... finally i did it!
The first Star trail shot I tried!
75 mins exposure on 26th May 0200Hrs!
AWESOME for a first timer like me...
Thanks Shutterbug Pooja for letting me experiment with her Nikon FM2! You are the best!
This going to get better for sure... !
MEGHANA'S RECIPE FOR STAR TRAIL SUCCESS AS FOLLOWS:
Ingredients:
1 Manual Film SLR
1 ISO 100 film
1 Tripod (don't worry if you don't have one. Like me, you can improvise)
1 MP3 player
1 Alarm clock ( a mobile will do)
Prepration:
Load and set up the camera on the tripod, (lens facing skywards, and a few hours after moonset or before moonrise is good!)
f /11 Exposure time: anywhere between 5 minutes to 5 hours. (If 5 hours, then you need to be really away from civilization...)
Set up your alarm, put on your headphones and ENJOY!
NOTE: No matter how well you plan, how well you set up your camera, LUCK is something beyond our control! (an airplane crossed sometime during exposure in this shot... )
The first Star trail shot I tried!
75 mins exposure on 26th May 0200Hrs!
AWESOME for a first timer like me...
Thanks Shutterbug Pooja for letting me experiment with her Nikon FM2! You are the best!
This going to get better for sure... !
MEGHANA'S RECIPE FOR STAR TRAIL SUCCESS AS FOLLOWS:
Ingredients:
1 Manual Film SLR
1 ISO 100 film
1 Tripod (don't worry if you don't have one. Like me, you can improvise)
1 MP3 player
1 Alarm clock ( a mobile will do)
Prepration:
Load and set up the camera on the tripod, (lens facing skywards, and a few hours after moonset or before moonrise is good!)
f /11 Exposure time: anywhere between 5 minutes to 5 hours. (If 5 hours, then you need to be really away from civilization...)
Set up your alarm, put on your headphones and ENJOY!
NOTE: No matter how well you plan, how well you set up your camera, LUCK is something beyond our control! (an airplane crossed sometime during exposure in this shot... )